jom balik :)
Coming back to Malaysia, I had one concern: that I would find it difficult to establish myself here. I’m not even entirely sure what I meant by “establish myself” at the time, but without sounding angkat bakul, I genuinely feel accomplished with everything that I have achieved whilst in the UK. I came to England not really knowing who I was, what I wanted from life, or what kind of person I wanted to become, and somehow, four years later, I came back having built a life that I once could not have imagined for myself. I had my expectations of advocacy crashed, I lost faith in people whom I thought were supposed to be my comrades, I had to rebuild my understanding of what community and solidarity actually meant, and somewhere along the looooooooong way, I also rebuilt myself. So I think a part of me was scared that I would come home and suddenly feel like I had to start all over again, as if everything I had become in England only belonged there. I think one of the biggest changes in me ...
